The Dark, Cold Run

Running in the sun, with your friends by your side, a slight breeze at your back, beauty all around you, and a feeling of being unstoppable are all moments sweet and pleasurable. Every runner who has ever laced up a pair of running shoes has experienced such breathtaking occasions. Yet, there are other periods in a runner's training.

This time of year in the Intermountain West a runner's more common experience is running alone in the cold and dark. Shorter daylight hours, long work days, and subzero temperatures limit options to run in more hospitable conditions. If the unconquerable runner wants to achieve his goals, he must go out alone into the cold and dark, make friends with his solitude, and embrace the quiet sound of his labored breath.

Like a winter season in the runner's training regimen, we live through times of isolation, with limited options. Like the unconquerable runner, we too must push through the dark and cold if we are to realize the beauty and fullness of being that can only come through consistent and steady effort. Ultimately, the key may be in embracing struggle as it comes and welcoming the embryo of strength such exertions create. After all, it is in the dark, cold run that we discover ourselves and make running in the sun even more brilliant.

Limits

Most runners in general and the unconquerable runner in particular face the limits of possibility in a very real and embodied way from time to time. Each race run takes everything. It is at the extreme of what the human body can accomplish over a given distance where we discover the best of ourselves. This revelation has proved to be the most rewarding and pleasurable part running. So much so, that even when I have races planned where I do not have any particular stake in my performance, I will still put everything out on the course.

Coming this week is a Thanksgiving Turkey Trot in Hailey, Idaho. I will be running this race. I was thinking during my run this morning how it would be nice to just run the 5k with a relaxed training pace. I chuckled a little at the thought. I knew then as I know now that I will run that race as hard and as fast as my body and mind are capable of. Of course, I am not training or making any special preparations. I am, as they say, running right through the race (meaning I am not altering my training plan...I have an 11 mile run the day before the scheduled race). Still, the pain and fear that comes from being at the edge of existence will be there.

It goes without saying, but the act of confronting our limitations and potential does not take place exclusively in running or racing. A good friend of mine has recently had to undergo surgery and have a pace maker placed in his chest. While this is a source of significant discomfort, as soon as he was able (and got his doctor's approval) he started to run again. Just running a couple of miles at a given time brings him right up to his limits. It is inspiring to see his courage and diligence manifest in such efforts.

Bottom line is that if we never reach our limits we never really live and never truly know the extent of who we are and what we are capable of in the face of such challenges. So it goes for the unconquerable runner to periodically push right up against these limits, to bleed a little.

New Beginnings

I recently completed the St. George marathon and ran a new personal record. It was a very satisfying and enjoyable experience. A couple of weeks have passed and now I am contemplating my next training plan.

The most effective training approaches in running involve periodization. The beautiful part of breaking your training into periods is that your training focus changes like the seasons. Like the change from Summer to Fall, a liminal space is created that offers a moment to reflect on where you have been and where you would like to be.

I am very satisfied with how St. George went but part of me is not satisfied. I believe that there is more. I will run the Boston marathon next April and want to set a personal record there as well. Boston is a more difficult course with well known challenges. I believe that such an accomplishment is possible and within my ability to reach but only after the trial of miles and miles of trials.

The training that will get me to that level of fitness will involve running distances right up to the ceiling of what my schedule and commitments will allow. Part of me is very excited to take on the challenge; another part feels anxious and a little scared.

I have to simply remind myself that the ideal of the unconquerable runner is made real in the effort and struggle, in stepping up to the line each day. There are no compromises in the pursuit of excellence.